What do I want out of this trip?

Monday started at 7:30 a.m. tipsy and unbalanced. I was up with the sun and birds, but hadn’t recovered from the previous night’s drinking –wine in the tent, beer at the pub. I attempted to practice yoga, but soon the tide came in and I resorted to sitting on a rock and attempting to meditate. I was recuperating my equilibrium and attempting to trick my body into feeling well rested when heavy thoughts began to invade my tranquillity. I began to brood about the meaning of this trip. What am I learning? What do I want to learn? Who do I want to be on the other side of this adventure? And is this a process or a goal that I can check off like a laundry list?

I am striving for balance, and learning what that looks like for me.

To live like there’s no tomorrow and make a future that I can live with, indulge in the riches the earth had to offer without becoming struck with greed and gluttony, relax and rejuvenate and work purposefully, take and contribute, be optimistic and accept pain as a part of life, engage in challenges and accept that some things are out of my control.

I don’t expect solutions, but within myself I hope to develop peace with the questions I can’t answer.